Labirin

Bahkan, hingga kini, aku selalu benci berjalan di sebuah lorong panjang yang nyaris tertutup. Ini mengingatkan pada labirin Daedalus, sebuah labirin di bawah Kreta dalam mitologi Yunani; kisah yang kubaca ketika masih kecil. Aku mulai membayangkan bagaimana jika Minotaur itu muncul di depan kita, lalu memamerkan wujudnya yang mengerikan: tubuh serupa manusia dengan kepala banteng. Apa yang sekiranya akan kita lakukan? Lari. Seakan tak pernah ada pilihan selain lari. Tapi bukan monster itu yang membuatku bergidik. Mereka bilang, labirin Daedalus bisa membaca pikiran kita, ketakutan-ketakutan terdalam kita dan akan menelan kita di dalamnya.
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Weltschmerz

‘i just want you to be happy. if that’s with me or with someone else or with nobody. i just want you to be happy. i just want you to be okay with life. with life as it is. and me, too. it is so hard to accept that life is falling. falling and landing and falling and landing. i agree it’s not ideal. i agree.

but there is the word, this word phil wrayson taught me once: weltschmerz. it’s the depression you feel when the world as it is does not line up with the world as you think it should be. i live in a big goddamned weltzschermz ocean, you know? and so do you. and so does everyone. because everyone thinks it should be possible just to keep falling and falling forever, to feel the rush of the air on your face as you fall, that air pulling your face into a brilliant goddamned smile. and that should be possible. you should be able to fall forever.’

David Levithan (Will Grayson, Will Grayson)